Summer o7

Finally,
no more fucking exams.
I swear one more day in this school and i'm going to kill myself.
It's so fucking run by all the preps and shit.
If you don't wear Hollister or American Eagal, you're and outcast.

Well long live us outcasts,
because i'm free
for 3 months
and all those trash talking preppy bitches
can go die in a firey car crash and i would seriously not be sad

Long live the car crash heart

Everyone got a story to tell

Alright so finally after the long procarsatiantion i will be updating my Andy story!

woohooo go me! :]

yes i am a loser,

but still

if you haven't read it yet

shame on you!

I Could Write It Better Than You Ever Felt It

go read! This is chapter one get your self updated so you are ready for my update :]

Crashing Not Like Hips or Cars

Destruction.
You've destroyed me.

I've destroyed friendships beyond repair because of my stupid actions and the hole on my heart. I always think my friends hate me and that I'm not good enough for them, that in itself drives people away. Destruction. You've destroyed me.

Hatred.
I hate you.

Hate is so pointless. I hate you, you hate me it's all the same. So why do so many people hate me, when I'm incapable of hatred, what did i do to deserve this? Tell me please, Hatred. I hate you.

Love.
I loved you.

I loved him, or i think i did, why does he not see it. It's practically tattooed on my forehead. I still like him, love him maybe, too strong of a word, how should i know? Love. I loved you.

Envy.
I envy her.

He likes her not me. I know it, it's so unfair. I don't see why they never like me back. I mean I'm pretty right? We are so alike and still he likes her. I don't understand. Envy. I envy her.

Jealousy.
I'm stuck in jealousy

Why am i not pretty, or skinny, or have not flaws? Why am i not like them? Why am i not fucking perfect!? I try and try and try, but i get nowhere. What is it with the world today why is being myself not good enough anymore, why am i so jealous of them? Jealousy. I'm stuck in jealousy.

Adoration.
I adore you.

Ah, the people we look up too. The people we strive to be, the people, although we don't know them, make our lives better. Mine would be Fall out Boy, silly yes. But i know that even though i can't speak with them, they know how i feel and Patrick's voice calms me at any time. Adoration. I adore you.

Hurt.
You hurt me.

Some scars heal with time, while others stay lingering with us all our lives. I try to forget but i can't. Somehow though they make me who i am today, they make me a better person by striving not to be like them Those few individuals who just don't care, they might start off your friends and grow to hate you. That hurt never really goes away. Hurt. You hurt me.

I'm not gay but i love her more then you! <3 Shes my sister

You know what i have realized?
People say it all the time but i have finally found the meaning in it

"You don't really know what you've got until it's gone"

The other day i almost lost one of my best friends,

My everything,

the person who keeps me whole.

The girl that holds my heart so it doesn't stay broken.

My Ray Bear.

Seriously i would die without her,

Why does she have to be so god damn far away?

One day i am going to kiddnap her and bring her back to Canada. :]

Back to the main point.

I love her like a sister,

as a matter of fact she is my sister. (not related or anything but you get the fucking point)

I love her so much,

and her god damn brother could die for all I care because of what he did to her.!!

He is now number one on my hit list, i swear, no one messes with My Ray Bear. One of my best friends.

I love you till the end Ray Bear, don't you ever fucking forget it!!

♥

Twilight

SCORE!
Go me,
finally Kristen decided to bring the book to school.
So i get to read it now and i have to say:

I love it already!

If you don't know what Twilight is
shame on you!
It's this amazing book about Vampires and things of that nature.
It's written by Stephenie Meyer.
go read it now!! hahah :)

Did you hear the news, i could dissect you

The Jokes on you, we are salt and you are the wound

Ha what a jerk face,
Why do i always fall for the jack asses.
I mean I'm not even sure if i like him anymore.
I just want to be friends,
but oh no. Its too fucking difficult for that now isn't it.

This Is Me Wishing You into the worst situations.

Seriously, talk to me.
I don't bite.
I'm not evil.
And despite what you may think
I don't cry at everything someone says to me.
Sure i get upset if it is mean and hurtful
but who doesn't
Sure i will be upset if you say you don't like me back.
And i know you don't.
But i can dream can't i?
A crush is a crush,
they come they go.
It's life.
Don't over react on them.
because if you do, thats pathetic.

I'm the kind of kid that can't let anything go

When a friend betrays someone it hurts.
Take Taryn for example.
Best friends for like 3 years
then BAM out of nowhere she ignores me and starts to be a bitch to be.
If she had just explained to me that we were growing apart (which we were)
i would be cool,
now I'm just pissed that she didn't have the guts to say something to my face.
And if you do that.
I'm sorry but i will be pissed.
Explain to me that "you don't like me that way"
we can be friends,
it will just take a little work on both our parts,
I'll stop liking you (eventually)
and you could stop listening to your friends opinions of me
and decide for yourself.

But you wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat

I hope you read this.

Matt Johnston

sure you never knew i liked you,
but we were good friends
(i thought)
and i want to stay that way
only that way
nothing else
why must you ignore me?
is it my popularity?
is it your friends?
is it my friends?
is it in my head?
Probably.

Love Will Tear Us Apart

Ok so there is this boy,
and he is just so amazing!
I mean i know i say that about all of my crushes but this one is different, really different.
He listens to me
he talks to me
He lets me read his lyrics.

He's everything i want.
Then why can't i not tell him?

I mean it shouldn't be that hard,
i can tell him everything else.
Just not whats important

Sure he has assholes friends that hate my guts and will not leave me alone.
In fact i think his one friend knows.
Now I'm so confused.
and i feel that if i tell him,
we won't be friends anymore.
And if that happens,
I'd be devastated.
He's my everything,
i can turn to him whenever.

Someone tell me why then,
why we can't be more.
Why we aren't more.
Why i can't tell him.

He says that i should tell the guy i like, (yes I've asked for advice on the problem, to him)

he says that if i don't i will regret it.
But i fear i will regret telling him if i do.

Why the hell is love this way?


Since the day i meet you,
and after all we've been through
I'm still addict-
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you